New Pictures!

Update pictures! Abigail is now 11 wonderful weeks old and growing like a weed! Shes 13 pounds and 23 and 3/4 inches long!

My fiance Ben with Abbi at the hospital after my best friend Tabby had her baby!!!

pictures!

Here are some pictures I will add more soon!

Abigail Jo Veith Born: May 25, 2008

8 pounds 1 ounce

19 inches long

Joshua and Abigail

My dad and his first grandbaby !

<--The ride home was exhausting!

She's so beautiful! :)

Fed UP!

Lack of sleep really stinks, I'm due in about a week so literally she could come at anytime, but I'm swelling so bad that it hurts and I can barely walk it feels like im walking on packets of fluid that will burst if i stand up and put full pressure on them. I am finally at the stage in my pregnancy where I'm absolutley FED UP with being pregnant! And she needs to just come already! I can't be comfortable, I literally can not sleep unless I'm sitting up in a 90 degree angle, (the fluid builds up on one side of my body if i lay on one side too long and it hurts really bad so i toss and turn at night so i can't sleep).

Anyway, hopefully it will all be over soon. keep your fingers crossed for really really soon!

The weekend from H-E-double hockey sticks!

First of all I just want to say I love my nieces to death and I would do anything for them...But they are driving me bonkers! T&B are in Las Vegas this weekend they come back tomorrow thank goodness... (lol), So I said I would watch the girls. Alright so lets put this a little bit more in perspective for you, I'm about 16 days away from my due date, I feel like I am my own galaxy, and I swell so bad now I turn purple! And lets just say chasing after a 8 and 4 year old all weekend really has me stressed. Plus they have the mom and dad are away so the mice will play syndrome. You know what I mean you've been there the one where hey lets see what I can get away with since mom and dad are gone and how far I can push Auntie before she freaks sorta thing? Anyway, All I have to say is YAY for bed time!!!! :)
Straying away from the girls terrors, I'm am absolutley terrified of going into labor. I mean yes I want her to come out of me finally but I'm so scared that something is going to go wrong during labor or that after she is here I won't be a good mom, or my biggest fear, I won't be able to make it financially I'm so scared that I'm not going to be able to make it its not even funny. And the thing that sucks about that is I've been working so hard to get ahead but I'm not really ahead I'm just well caught up. I've been trying to prove to everyone (my family and friends) that I can do this on my own, but honestly the biggest fear I have about being a single mom is that I'm going to prove my whole family right and not be able to make it on my own and have to ask them for help with money. Cuz really I think that is the biggest issue I'm going to have which is the worst one to have. But yeah anyway, enough freaking out sorry... :S
I start a new work schedule on Tuesday, Overnights woohoo! Yeah I know your thinking, what overnights are you crazy? But its a Tuesday thru Saturday 3:00am-12:00pm shift. I'm going to be making an extra 1.50$ an hour for week days and if I work both weekend days then I'll get an extra 4.00$ per hour for any hours worked on Sat and Sun. I think can deal with that :). Anyway hope everyone had a good weekend!

Time is flying!

Well, I had my baby shower last sunday, It was really fun I got a lot of stuff. I'm an elmo freak and luckily one of my girl friends is too :) cuz she got me a bunch of elmo outfits they are soo cute. Unfortunately my cousin K and little cuzin E couldn't come E's been really sick. But hopefully she is getting better I haven't heard anything for awhile. So I'm 36 weeks pregnant today. WOW. I'm huge lol that's all i have to say. I feel like I'm my own planet. Ha ha. Anyway, Doc says I'm prolly going to go early so I'm just getting ready for it to happen any time. I'm going to find out more tomorrow at my doc appt. Sleep is becoming more and more impossible to accomplish its so hard to get comfortable. I toss and turn all the time. But other than that, I'm feeling ok way too tired all the time but it will all be over and way worth it shortly :). Oh and the biggest new thing that has happened!!!! Baby's daddy finally bought her something! He got her, her Travel System (car seat and stroller combined). Its so Adorable. If you google "Babytrend Orange Oak Travel System" you will be able to see a pic of the one i got. Its fantastic I love it. I still need things though like bottles, more clothes, diapers, wipes, socks, and some breast feeding supplies. I'm going to try and breast feed for at the most 6 months but if I can't at the very least I want to do it while I'm home on leave. But yeah anyway off to work I go I'm still squeezing in a little Overtime while I feel ok till the baby comes:) every little bit helps :)

Long time no Blog...

Well, WoW its been awhile, here are a few quick updates, I have moved out of T&B's house now and I live in a cute little 1+ bedroom apartment on the NE side of Rochester. I am 34 weeks pregnant, so in the home stretch!!!! Finally! My baby shower is coming up on April 20th, I'm so excited cuz then i can start setting up babies room finally! I'm a little worried she might come early, I had a doctors appt yesterday and i've been right on for measurements until this appt now i'm measuring as more than i should be 35 instead of 34in. My doctor thinks I might go early but who knows, I've been having contractions also, which adds to my worry but doc says im healthy I just need to slow down lol. Apparently trying to do everything you used to do before you got pregnant when your about ready to pop isn't the greatest thing. I find its even harder now adays too cuz i spend most of my time trying to find the nearest rest room.
Oh and another thing I'm extremely proud of my mom for the first time in a long time. She went to school and got her CNA and is now working at the nursing home where my grandpa is staying which is fantastic. She passed in the higher part of her class and loves what she is doing. I guess in all of this it might sound alright, but i'm still so scared that im not going to be able to handle being a single mom, babies daddy is there but not all "there" if you know what I mean. I guess drugs and alcohol will do that to you. I just wish he would go back to being the person I fell for, he was just a geek too scared to barely touch a girl and had never done drugs in his life. But that will never happen. Those days are over... :( I guess I'm just worried that money is going to be an issue, maybe I won't be a good mom, i'm just waiting for my BF J to leave me once the baby comes cuz he will finally realize what i've been going thru and that its not just me and him anymore and he wont like the whole idea. Hes weirded out by it now which i completely understand shes not even his. I just wish that i knew without a doubt that hes not going to leave me high and dry cuz he gets too scared. I know we will always be friends but ahhhhH! Thats not what I want to happen. Thats not the way I want to know him. I'm afraid that all the things that some of my family believes will be proven true that I wont be able to handle it on my own that I will fail miserably. It sucks that for the first time in my life, I'm actually getting back on my feet and making something of myself and I could use/deserve the support of my family emensely but they always see the faults. I guess thats my fault but i've worked so hard to turn that around and it just didn't work. Anyway, I have to get going, i have to go work some OT. anyway i'll update more this weekend, i have my childbirth class tonight and tomorrow.

Another Day Another Dollar.

There is one advantage to working alot, good pay. Although when you work so much you don't have much else you do with your time but try and sleep and eat it gets a little more interesting. I really enjoy working at Charter, I love the people I work with and sometimes I have fun with my customers too but there are also those days that just suck because no matter what you do it isn't good enough for any customer and you are the person they are going to take all their problems out on. I have been striving to get promoted for over 6 months now and I'm very close to getting there but there are many many other people that have more experience and have worked their so much longer than I have its just still a shot in the dark. So, I took the opportunity the other day and applied at Mayo, for various jobs. I'm hoping they call me because that would be outstanding but if they don't I'll just keep trying. I also applied for a couple of jobs at Olmstead Medical Center. It would be really nice to get into Mayo then I would be able to go to school and have it paid for. It would be great but who knows what will happen.
Anyway, I had my gestational diabetes test the other day I haven't gotten my test results yet unfortunately but hopefully by Monday I will. I'm in the home stretch as my doctor would say, I'm 28 weeks this coming Wednesday. I was worried about not gaining enough weight...well not anymore ha ha. I've gained 18 pounds in the last 6 weeks which is alot for me! I've always had a hard time putting on weight but not this time thank goodness! My doc still wants to see me gain quite a bit more but I don't absolutely need too gain as much as she would like, its just that my BMI was lower than normal when I went in at the beginning. But anyway, I'm going to go enjoy the beautiful day outside. I'll write more soon!

Tired all the time.

Its this never ending cycle, no matter how much sleep I get its never enough. I guess it doesn't help that I work all the time. I feel like I never leave that place. I mean don't get me wrong I like my job because I love the people I work with, its just the customers are emotionally and sometimes physically draining it stinks. Also trying to get noticed and improve in my own work makes it harder also, trying to get promoted. And my emotional roller coaster sucks too. I hate not being able to control my emotions. I just have to keep in mind that it will all be worth it in the end.

Finally no longer a teenager!

YAY! Finally is a word that comes to mind today as today marks my 20th birthday! I'm going to enjoy a well deserved day off hanging with my sister! more to come later today:)

First Monday of the Month

Wow, it's been awhile since I wrote... Well now it's into February and I'm 3 days from being 20 years old. Three Years ago today, I moved to Rochester. Looking back at the day of and the couple of days afterwards, just makes me appreciate even more what my sister and brother-in-law have done for me. Yes I've still screwed up. And yes I've still made some wrong decisions, but I'm alot better off than I was three years ago. If anything moving to Rochester with them gave me expieriences that I wouldn't trade for the world. I have a great job, I hate it sometimes but there are alot of opportunities to move up in the company which is great. And the people that I work with are awesome. I graduated from high school, barely but I did which is still great.
But anyway, I'm now 24 weeks along in my pregnancy and I'm a little concerned because I'm still so small, but I guess thats what happened with my mom she was small until her 6th month so we will see what happens, my doctor also says that I'm doing fine but I'm just being a worry wart I hope.
Work is going great I've slowly but surely been working my way to getting promoted, I hope anyway. There are alot of hoops you have to jump thru to get promoted all these certifications you have to get before you can move up so yeah. Its been proving to be difficult. But other than that not much else has happened besides that my car sucks and its sucking all my money away. I'll keep you posted this week I should find out when my interview is I hope!

The Weekend

The girls and I A and E had a fun filled weekend while mom and dad were in Fargo, ND at dad's state poker tournament. Friday we had waffles for dinner with my boyfriend J and made vanilla pudding and had a movie night with the fort and all, we watched Night at the Museum. The girls loved it.

Saturday we made jello, and chocolate chip cookies. And I made chicken dumpling soup!

A and E both requested that I make it more often. And of course T and B have started the grand tradition of rubbing it in when they have something for lunch or dinner that I would want,

I had to return the favor, I sent them multiple pics of the girls enjoying their soup as you see :). It was a great weekend. We aslo had to bare the cold to run to walmart to get milk. Then for dinner we had a pizza night.









Sunday, we had pancakes and sausage for breakfast with my BF J and had a lazy day of sitting around the house cleaning and watching movies munching on the great cookies and jello we had made the day before. Then later that night T and B arrived home after the girls were in bed. The girls were really good so we ran to walmart again and got them each a Littlest Pet Shop toy. They couldn't wait to share them with mom and dad. So over all it was a great fun weekend! Except for the fact that i have this awful cold that just won't go away!

My kitties!

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These are my kittens, well technically it started out three are mine and two are my BF J's but they are all both of ours. going from the top to bottom. 1.Tink 2.Squirt 3.Sasha 4.Bug 5. Angel.
Tink, Sasha, and Angel are sisters, and Bug and Squirt are also sisters. The two sets are 9 days apart in age. They are all around 16 weeks old. They are still small for their age all of them i would consider rescues cuz the first three their mom was killed by a car and the second three were the runts and weren't getting fed enough so i had to feed them all by bottle for the first 3-5 weeks i had them. They are all sisters now though. They all really have different personalities too. Its quite funni I'm working on getting a video of them up soon. :)

day in and day out...

Day in and day out it seems to be the same thing ever since... well my last blog entry almost, get up 7:30 am get girls ready for school/daycare, get Em on the bus, pick up from the morning...(most of the time), get ready for work work at 11:30am, work until whenever i can't pick up any OT anymore. (there is a limit only 12 hours a day you can work.)after 7 days straight OMG im draggin my butt. And i have a 11 hour day tomorrow and prolly a 12 the next and then the following until friday when i get a sorta break... I get the 18-20th off cuz Oh Captian made State for Texas Hold'em and him and my sister are going to Fargo for the weekend. Its sorta a mini vaca if you consider i don't have to go to work, but i have to watch a 4 and an 8 year old pick on each other and drive me absolutely nuts no listening to what I tell them... don't get me wrong I love them to death they can just drive me batty. I really hope Oh Capitan wins, so i can get a bonus for this weekend cuz, there is 12 hours of OT available on Sat and 10 on Sunday that I really need to work. But yeah anyway.

The POS 2003 chevy Impala broke down again. This time it won't start no matter what i do. Normally jumping it worked. So now i have to figure something out with that too. I really wish i hadn't made such a terrible investment, but thats in the past and I have to deal with it now. I'm hoping I'll be able to take it in and trade it out for a different car. But we'll see.

Other than that, baby is going emensly I finally had to switch to maternity pants, the other ones just weren't cutting it anymore. She kicks all the time its to the point now where she wakes me up at night sometimes. And my back pain gets worse every week. But yeah I just keep telling myself that in the end it will all be worth it. and it seems to get me thru the day... day after day after day... The nice thing about working long ours is that during the down time at work, between the yelling and screaming of angry customers, I've been able to make a list of things that baby's daddy needs to do in order to be a part of his daughters life.... (hes not the greatest person in the world drugs alcohol you name it). Apparently though he has been drug free for awhile now, but still drinks... what can i expect though he just turned 21. Anyway, he knows there is going to be restrictions and things like that, he just wants me to spell them out lol. SO i got him a Appt and goal planner. That i've written my appts down in and how far along I am in and dates that he should have certian things done or purchased by for the baby. For example, he needs to have his own apt by May 1st. He needs to have all the necessary equipment to take care of a baby which I have given him a list and will probably help him set up and help him make decisions on what to get. Also I've decided that he needs to take a Newborn Care class thru my hospital before he will be able to take the baby without me being there. Also he's going to provide me with proof of his drug free ness with random drug tests that he is paying for from his own pocket. Which considering thats alot better than what the courts would give him after his history hes taking it no questions asked thank god. He even offered to buy me my crib (http://www.target.com/gp/detail.html/602-7889522-6280647?ie=UTF8&coliid=I34YLWFUZUSQWI&asin=B000XFMZC8&colid=A41Q25YJAOCP&bckreg=lc) i want and the travels system(car seat and stroller set)(http://www.target.com/gp/detail.html/602-7889522-6280647?ie=UTF8&coliid=IXFV2W8KTQGNY&asin=B000LPD8OE&colid=A41Q25YJAOCP&bckreg=lc). Which is freaking outstanding.

Progress is being made thats great. But yes, with that I draw this blog entry to a close, going to bed finally after a long day and a little venting will do me some good. Thanks for reading.

Ultrasound Pictures!

The top right is my baby girl at our first ultrasound on December 21st, 2007. The top right is my baby girls big right foot, at our second ultrasound on January 2nd, 2008.

The above left is another picture from my first ultrasound on Dec. 21st, 2007. You can see her big hand all stretched out! The above right is her huge right foot at our 2nd ultrasound on Jan 2, 2008.